Thursday, February 19, 2015

Book Review: Choice Cuts by Joe Clifford

The stories in this collection now and again flirt with various genres though crime has the upper hand. “Choice Cuts” talks mostly about desperate people who lead desperate lives. Happiness is something that you see in the movies, and not that you read about in books, the author seems to think, and I guess that’s the reason why his heroes find themselves in trouble all the time.

Even though this is not your cliché ridden crime story collection, we do get to meet a lot of sad and deluded people within its pages; I say deluded because they really can’t tell what’s true or false and thus they believe what they want to believe, without stopping to think for a moment that things may not be as they seem. So, a cop kills a man thinking that it was the right thing to do, but that was a mistake; a couple of prisoners create the perfect plan to escape but their reasoning is clouded by mischief, exhaustion and hunger; and a man realizes that “…when it looks too good to be true, it usually is”.

I believe that the best thing about these stories, even though they do contain quite a few twists and turns, are their characters, all of whom seem to be living their personal hell on earth. Ray, in “Nix Verrida” is a veteran whose mind is playing tricks on him; how many and how big we don’t get to know until the end of the story. Jimmy is a writer who’s unable to write anything, while Kitty, his girlfriend is sick of him; his not drinking and not writing. Geiger and Donnie are squatters who have a plan to make it big. And last but not least there’s a man who thinks that Leonardo da Vinci is to blame for all his troubles.

“Is anyone in here psychologically sound?” one could ask. Well, the truth is that most of them are not, and that’s what makes their stories so interesting. It’s as if the author, by telling the reader everything about them, tries to make it clear that what happens to them could happen to anyone. All it takes is a major event, or even a minor one at a critical moment, to change somebody’s life forever.

If you’d ask me to choose a story to call a favourite, I really wouldn’t know which to pick; they’re all bleak, and they all talk about loss in one way or the other. “Rags to Riches” with its final twist took me by surprise; “Nix Verrida” made me feel a real sympathy for its hero; “A Matter of Trust” managed to put me into thoughts about the role destiny has to play in our lives; while “Chain Reaction” came to prove that it’s for the best if we don’t rush to jump into conclusions.

Choice Cuts is one of those rear books that have a lot of stories to tell, but in an almost relaxed, laidback way. The author doesn’t seem to try too hard to impress the reader with his writing, or even with his plots. His narratives are plain and simple, so they stick to the reader’s mind, and they make them feel some kind of connection with the heroes. And, I don’t know why but, this book also reminds me about the golden era of noir fiction; the times when the characters build the stories and not the words; when the dialogues were more vibrant and the heroes simple people, just like everyone else.

Joe Clifford did a great job bringing these heroes and their personal stories to life, so reading this collection proved to be a real joy.

First published in Crime Factory magazine

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Evil and the Mask by Fuminori Nakamura review

Evil and the Mask is one of those books that captivate the reader not so much with their plot and action but with the interactions between its heroes in a society that seems to be on the brink of destruction.

Most of the people in the west expect murder and mayhem and high-octane adventures when they read crime fiction. There’s a little bit of the above in this story, but not enough to thrill someone. Instead the author offers a story that talks about the cruelty of a father, the redemption of a son and a love affair that’s bound to go terribly wrong.

The said father, a ruthless businessman, tells his young son, Fumihiro that he’ll become a cancer, a personification of evil under his guidance, and the child feels that there’s darkness inside of him already. He hates his father and he’s determined to kill him one day and thus fulfill his prophecy. Until then though he must do his best to resist his authority and enjoy life a little. Enter Kaori, a young girl who’s adopted into the family, with whom Fumihiro grows up and inevitably falls in love with. He knows that his father will do everything to stop him from being happy, and later rather than sooner decides to take matters into his own hands. Will this pursue of happiness lead him to his doom or will it change his life once and for all for the better?

Happiness is a fortress,” we read somewhere, and one can rest assured that apart perhaps from the worst of people in these pages, not many can enter it. Instead they keep wandering in the streets of the night, like people with fake faces and mistaken identities; people who have nothing to lose because their lives never really belonged to them.

Fuminori Nakamura, whose excellent previous novel The Thief I've read in one sitting, has his characters interact in peculiar ways. While they’re desperately trying to find their way in an ever changing world, they are held back by the ghosts of the past; while they need love, they thrive in pain; and while they fight hard to be good, they end up exactly the opposite.

As we follow these people we get to learn a lot of things, not only about modern Japan, but also about the loneliness that has become the plague of our times, and the cynicism that seems to drive a lot of people’s actions.

Perhaps this is one of those few special occasions when the title of a book describes perfectly its content. The evil is personified in two people in here; the mask in another two. The characters come alive because the author seemingly keeps his distance from them, and his story is captivating for the simple reason that most of the time things in life don’t turn out as we want them to.

Nakamura chose to narrate his story by moving back and forth in time, thus providing miniscule clues, from chapter to chapter, about how things are going to play out. And yet, because he’s a Japanese author and doesn’t have to abide by the rule of the happy ending, he manages to surprise the reader. You don’t have to be a fan of the genre to enjoy this tale; but even if you are, once you’re not looking for blockbuster fiction you’re bound to love it, as its not larger than life heroes and its simplicity win the day. As a conclusion I’d say that the crime is not so important here, since it only serves as the means that justify the end.

First published in Crime Factory magazine

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

One for My Baby by Barry Graham review

Sometimes it feels good to read a book just for laughs, and One for My Baby is one of those books that are not only fun to read but which can also prove the perfect antidote to boredom, while they can just as well offer some down time to someone who desperately needs it.

The characters in this neo-noir novella are quite interesting. They all seem to come from the past, a time of femme fatales and criminals that took everyday life as a stroll in the park of the outlaws. One could say that they are lovable in a way, but they are also cruel, headstrong, unfaithful but most of all in love with themselves.

It all begins with a robbery. Mark, a musician, robs a restaurant in Phoenix, Arizona, and as expected he finds himself in a big mess. But that doesn’t deter him from going to his cousin’s wedding. Casci, the cousin in question, is a mobster who has some cops on his payroll. And as being the latter’s cousin and a robber is not enough, Mark is also having an affair with a married woman.

Living a life like that more often than not leads to trouble and the more trouble the hero finds himself into, the more fun the reader has. The author approaches his story in a lighthearted manner that gives it a spark and which makes the reading experience all the more enjoyable. Even the secondary characters, like Mark’s partner in crime (whose name I cannot mention because it would be a spoiler), Joel the snitch and detective Rankin, they all have something to add in the storyline and the laughs.

If there’s one thing that I’ve enjoyed more than anything in this story is the way the characters interact with each other. It’s like no one can trust anyone else and like behind every word they utter or every action they take lies something else. Betrayals and double-crossings are hardly unusual in noir fiction, but the author seems to be having way too much fun plotting his heroes’ every move, high points and sudden falls, that in fact the book every now and then reads like a parody, and a good one at that.

You can devour this volume in one sitting and if you are a fan of noir fiction you’ll probably enjoy it just as much as I did. It may not remind you a lot of the masters of the past, but it will help you realize that the noir genre is still alive and well, and evolving by the day.

First published in Crime Factory magazine

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Christmas Bliss

He had always been her confessor; a strange a thing to be, isn’t it? He was the confessor who loved her but never said so, her buddy, the man who was always there for her, in illness and in health, during her falls from grace and her stubborn efforts to climb back up the ladder of life again. He was there then, but never in between, not when it really mattered to him. He wanted to be her lover, her man, not just a shoulder to lean on. Life, he thought, had cheated him.

It keeps doing that actually, since now, years later he’s still alone. Not that he haven’t met any other women in his life, he had, a few; but not anyone like her. She, Maya, was the only one he ever wanted, really wanted. He wanted her for who she was, for her sweet insanity, for her little dramas, for her ups and downs, and for her smile, and her touch, for her ability to make him feel real in a world that he always felt he didn’t belong.

He’d known her since they were sixteen, the bittersweet high school years. She was one of those girls that carried a haunted look, as if there was just loneliness and sorrow in their eyes, and in their souls. Her eyes, so beautiful and so dark, reminded him of black wandering pearls, as they traversed time and again through the corridors of pessimism and despair. But yet, she was beautiful. Every time she smiled, something that didn’t happen so often, mind you, it looked and felt to him as if she was transformed, like she’d metamorphosize into somebody else, a bright young soul that could spread light and joy all around her; a light and a joy she didn’t even know that she carried inside.

It was that look, that rare smile, and even the way she moved, slowly like the mist on a summer morning by the beach, that made him like her. Marios felt enchanted by the very first moment he met her, and she liked him too, but no more than that. So the one was in love and the other was not. Same old story, one would say. But Marios would make sure that the story wouldn’t end in sadness and in pain. He’d keep his feelings under control, he would never let her know how his heart ached every time he saw her, how his body lusted for something that it could never have.

So they didn’t become lovers, they became friends, thus they still did have each other, for better or for worse. They’d spend a lot of time together, in the class and afterwards, taking some short trips at the weekends, if given the chance, sharing their thoughts, savoring their special moments.

Sooner or later though their school days came to an end and college time came knocking, in the blessed year 2000, the only millennium that any of them would get to see. She remained in Athens and got a job at a shop in Monastiraki, since her grades were not good enough to allow her to continue with her studies, and he moved to Thessaloniki where he enrolled at Aristotelio University to study architecture. However they never lost touch, the hundreds of miles of distance that separated them did not prove enough to keep them apart.
She thought of him often, he thought of her more, and many times they would call each other in the middle of the night, to talk, and to listen, to fill the void that that separation had created in their everyday lives. I’m never happy, I’m never satisfied, she’d complain, and he would feel sorry for her. And he would think that, I can make you happy, but never say so. He lacked the courage, and he lacked the luck, as he used to say to one of his new friends.

As for him, he was content with his life, not happy, just content. He took things as they came, at his own pace, changed the things he could, had the serenity not to try to change the ones he couldn’t. Yet he missed her, badly. He missed her fleeting touches and her smile, he missed caressing her short black straight hair and embracing her almost transparent body. He told her that, often. I miss you Maya, he would say, I miss our moments.

And so did she, actually, but she would never say it. He was her buddy, her best friend, the man she always needed but could never have, because he valued him too much. She had some special feelings for him but she wasn’t sure if she could call them love; love, not friendly love. If she ever lost him she would never forgive herself. It is better this way, she thought, for both of us.

Was it though? If it was why then didn’t she ever have that feeling of wholeness that she felt when she was with him? Her body had met many men, her soul only one. The one-night stands were not something uncommon for her but the release they offered had hardly been enough; sooner rather than later she was hungry again, for affection and love, the things she couldn’t really have.

And then, she decided to pull her act together, to go steady. She met a decent guy, Nikos, and spent quite some time with him. He’d come to her place to make out and she’d go to his, they’d go out with friends, or by themselves, they’d enjoy some unique moments together, and yet, she felt kind of empty. Only when she talked with Marios on the phone she’d feel her heart fill with joy; only then the things she experienced before would gain substance. He gives me what I want, and even though he’s not here, he gets me.

That had always been her problem, nobody could get her, nobody but him. So after a few months Nikos would unavoidably hit the road, only to be replaced, not long after, by Giannis. Giannis was different; he was the man that every woman would like to be with. He had money, he was smart, he was tender, and he was clueless. I like him, a lot, but he’s stupid, she’d complain to Marios, he thinks I’m interested in his money, in his gifts. The fact is she couldn’t care less. She didn’t need many things, she was not interested in wealth and luxury, all she needed was somebody to love.

That affair lasted almost for two years. Giannis may have been clueless, as she thought, but he had a good heart, and he cared deeply for her. The thing was though that she never felt like she belonged in his world. The rich boy had rich friends, and when they went out they went to places that she didn’t like; places where she had to dress-up to enter; high society places. My wish is to live and die in my jeans, he once told him, and he laughed. Sweet boy, sweet little boy.

Marios knew everything about her, have heard all her stories, and told her time and again his honest opinions, or when the need arose, what she wanted to hear. He was always happy to talk to her, always eager to listen, and that didn’t make life easy for him. It made it much harder actually, since his girlfriends couldn’t really understand his connection with that woman. Cut the umbilical cord, one of them told him, cut it now. But he didn’t. He couldn’t.

Elena was the first girl that found her way into his life when he arrived in Thessaloniki. He met her at a little café by the beach that he used to visit regularly early in the afternoon, before the evening crowds would start flooding the scene. He was reading one of his books and taking notes, and she did the same. And then their heads rose, and their eyes met. They smiled to each for a fleeting moment and moved on with what they were doing. That happened two more times during the same week, but when their fourth meeting took place they’ve decided to talk. And they did. And they kept doing so for many hours.

He liked her, he really did. Maybe it was because she didn’t look like Maya at all. She had an average body, long blond hair, and eyes that sparkled in shades of green. And she was smiling, almost nonstop. He’d say to her, I’m sick of you, stop smiling now, and she would smile to him, and he would smile back. She was like sunshine, but he missed darkness.

He told Maya about her, and she said, I’m so glad for you, you deserve some happiness in your life; and she thought, she’s not you; I am you.

They’ve only spent six months together. She broke it off. You’re not here, she told him, and that was it. She’d read him. He was sorry to see her leave but at the same time he felt sure that she’d made the right call. He wasn’t there. He’d never be.

And then came Katerina; temperamental Katerina. Her ups and downs were so sudden that would always manage to take him by surprise. I’m a nutcase, she warned him, when they met. And so am I, he replayed, but time would prove that he was no match for her. She had fiery red hair, dark eyes that reminded him of Maya, and a body that could benefit greatly from a diet, but she didn’t care, and neither did he. Now, if I could put Elena and Katerina together and create a hybrid, it would be just like her, he thought; her.
Katerina proved good to him, a teacher of sorts, she made him realize things about himself that he didn’t know, but he couldn’t really keep up with her. When I am with you I feel like I’m racing against time, he said, and proposed that they should take a break. Let’s get something straight, she replied, you’re not dumping me, I’m dumping you. And she did. After that, whenever he met her accidentally in the streets, at a café or a taverna, she would give him the finger, while Elena would give him a hug. I lead an interesting life, he’d think and smile to himself, interesting but lonely.

In the summer of 2003 they met again, almost three years since the last time. He went down to Athens to visit his parents and some friends, going against his own policy that dictated that once you go to a place you stick to it until you move to a new one.

It was on a warm July morning that he visited her at her workplace at Monastiraki, a shop that targeted tourists who wanted to buy mementos from Athens. She didn’t see him coming. She was placing something on a shelf as he walked in and approached her from her blind side. Nice, he said, in English to tease her, and she, without turning back to face him, said, I’m coming. When she did turn she looked like she just suffered a stroke. She remained still for a moment, taking him in, realizing that it was indeed him, and then she run into his arms. They felt so good to be able to hug each other again, to encounter the same smooth smells from the past, to remember how it used to be. Their embrace lasted for long, and when they separated she heard her calling her boss, Andrea, I’m taking the day off, and I’m leaving now. And they took off.

They walked down the street without talking, just holding hands and staring at the things they could not see. They reached the end of the narrow lane and turned left, avoiding the cafeterias, and then right towards the Thission railway station. It was a bright day, and they wanted to walk, it was becoming a hot day, but they didn’t mind it a bit. All that mattered was the moment, nothing else.

They followed the tourist route, taking the so-called pedestrian road towards Acropolis; so-called because it was almost totally taken over by coffee tables and traversed almost nonstop by motorcycles and the occasional car. One of the laws of the land, thought Marios, turn a blind eye to everything, and smiled to himself. She caught that smile and asked him, what? He told her and she half-laughed. As if things were any different in Thessaloniki. They weren’t.

They’ve reached Acropolis and sat under its shadow gazing at the never-ending city and the ancient Agora just below them. They didn’t stay there for long though, as the first tourist buses have started arriving one after the other, and soon enough the place would be crowded. 
So they walked downhill, this time towards Plaka, where they found a quiet little coffee shop and sat for a frappe; no milk, no sugar, for any of them. That place seemed to be bathed in the twilight even though it was still morning. The dark interior illuminated their thoughts in a way and that led them from silence to silence. They sat there for long, taking short sips from their frozen glasses, and studying each other’s eyes.
You’ve changed, she said. And you haven’t, he replied.

He felt like she was hugging him with her eyes, and that’s one of the things that he mostly liked about her. When she looked at him like that she made him feel happy, and loved, she made him feel special.

This is what I like when I am with you, I mean here or anywhere, but not on the phone, when I am with you I don’t need to talk. She said that. And he agreed. He felt exactly the same. What’s the use of words when you have eyes?

When they left it wasn’t even noon. They had a lot of time to spend, the whole day. Piraeus? she asked and he shrugged. So Piraeus it was. They went back to Monastiraki and took the old slow moving train that had very little resemblance to the brand new Metro.

Piraeus was hot and bursting with life. Way too many tourists but also locals where boarding the ferries in search of the island that would host their summer dreams. They’ve decided to follow suit. But since they carried no luggage and had to find their way back during the same day, they decided to go to Aegina, one of the closest destinations.

They opted for one of the old slow moving boats rather than the Flying Dolphins that traveled the seas in lightening speeds, since they really wanted to enjoy the ride; the sea and the sun, and the seagulls that followed the path created by the boat on the waves.

I’ve missed you, he said, almost in a whisper, as if afraid that the words would fracture the magic. I didn’t, she said; you only miss what you cannot have, and I always have you in here —she pointed at her heart— you’re with me every step of the way.

The trip proved way too short for their taste and at the end they couldn’t call it a day, so they’ve decided to stay. She called her boss to say that she wasn’t going to work the next day either, and he called his parents to tell them that he wouldn’t return home for the night. They had enough money to get by, so they found a room, bought the things they needed, and when the night had finally come they decided to play it the tourist way, which meant going to a taverna for dinner and after that do the traditional bar-hopping.

Things went well, as far as the drinking, and the hugging, and the laughing were concerned, and just before dawn they found themselves sitting on the rocks by the sea. They were quiet most of the time, letting the alcohol slip out of their bodies, and allowing the memories of the distant past and of that very same day, flood their senses. They were happy. They didn’t say it but they felt it. Here, in his arms, is where I belong, she thought. And he thought the same.

As the sun started coming up they headed for their room. Their walking pace was deliberately slow, as if they were trying to postpone something that was destined to happen anyway. A light wind was blowing from the south, bathing them with the aroma of the morning sea, and awakening their senses. They wanted each other so much; they needed each other so much; and they both knew it.

Later rather than sooner they reached their tiny room. They entered quietly like expert burglars. They opened the window just a crack to let the sun breathe new life to the shadows in which, up to then, the place was enjoying a night’s rest.

There were not many things in there; just a couple of chairs, a dresser and a table, and the bed. They sat on the bed, and forced their bodies to get close to each other, to touch. She made the first move, a gentle caress of his hair. He responded by pulling her into his arms, in a hurry, as if she was about to escape and run away, leaving him behind. They kissed; gently at first, more passionately after, and then…

No, she said, breaking away from his embrace, we can’t do this; we can’t risk what he have for something that may never be. And, you’re right, he somewhat reluctantly replied, we can’t.

They lay down on the bed not touching at first, until she rolled into his embrace. We are crazy you know, she said. I know, he whispered softly into her right ear. They were crazy, for wanting each other and doing nothing about it, for needing each other, and allowing that need to keep them apart. What if I lose a friend? they both thought; then what? That was the million dollar question.

They remained there, wide awake for more than an hour, and then they got up, gathered their few belongings and headed for the port. They’d take the first boat out. She’d head home to sleep and he’d go to his parents’ house. They’d follow their own different paths yet again.

During the next couple of weeks they met time and again but never on their own. They went out with common friends, visited their old hangouts, they ate and they drank, they laughed in public and cried in the dark. And then he left.

She missed him, she missed him badly. I shouldn’t let him go, she thought, but on the other hand if they did end up together, even that wouldn’t have stopped him. He had two more years of studies at the university, so whether she liked it or not, he had to stay in Thessaloniki. On the other hand, she was kind of free. Her relationship with her parents was just as bad as always, and she didn’t have anyone in her life that she could call a friend; not a real one anyway. As for her job, she couldn’t care less. She didn’t love it nor hate it, it was just a way to make ends meet. I should follow him, she thought; you must follow him, she tried to convince herself, but she just couldn’t do it. What is it you’re afraid of, huh? What?

She knew the answer, nothing had changed, she was afraid that if she went after him she’d lose him for good, and she couldn’t afford that. Damn you Marios, she cursed. Damn you, for who you are. Damn you, for the love I feel for you.

She felt miserable. Smiling was never one of her strengths but when she did smile, in the past, she used to make the world more beautiful, more illuminated, in that brief moment of joy. Now she just couldn’t do it. She couldn’t smile and she hardly laughed, and that only when she was watching a comedy at the cinema or elsewhere, and she rarely had a good night’s sleep. Damn you, Marios.

She loved him and she knew it; she always did. However as they were always friends she convinced herself that her love for him was lacking the erotic element. Where there’s no spark there’s no fire, she thought. But what if there was a spark but none of them saw it?

There was always something special going on between them, and he knew it, right from the beginning. He fell for her the moment he lay eyes on her, but he never brought himself to admit it. He just couldn’t do it. At first he was afraid of reflection, and then of losing her altogether. If he couldn’t be her lover, he could always be her friend. Something is better than nothing, he thought back then, but he knew that he was fooling himself, just like he did now. He was trying to forget her, to make her go away like a phantom of the night, to erase her image from his memory. But how could the mind ever forget what the body felt? He longed for her. He lusted for her. They should be together right now, but… Always that but… The distance, the friendship, the differences, the cheap excuses.

The truth is that they were not as different as he thought, actually they were quite similar. They wanted the same thing and they were afraid for it. Their bodies ordered go but their minds yelled stop. They were both at a dead end.

Before too long the summer was over, his studies began yet again, and then the autumn all of a sudden came to an end. During all that time they kept talking on the phone about their everyday lives, about stupid things and more serious ones, but never for the subject that mostly mattered to them. They thought that time would heal the wounds, as if it ever does. And then one night, he just couldn’t take it anymore, he said, I really miss you, I wish you were here. Silence ensued, a brief one, before she admitted that she missed him too. After a few awkward moments they hung up.

It was the middle of December and the weather was almost arctic cold in Thessaloniki, but the city, dressed here and there with the white cloak of snow, looked as beautiful as ever. Christmas was fast approaching and one could feel something different in the air, as if the people of the city were getting ready to change their common lives forever, to transform them from ordinary to extraordinary.

The truth is he never liked Christmas; he never liked any holiday when it came to that. It’s just people spending money they don’t have, he would say to anyone who asked him his thoughts about it. But there was something different about this Christmas, he could feel it in his soul, and his half-frozen bones, something...

He was walking in the cold streets of the night as his phone rang. It was her. Hello love, he said, teasing her. I’m here love, she said, not teasing him. She was at the train station, having just arrived from Athens. Stay there, I’m coming, he replied in a haste and hailed a cab. In ten long minutes he was there. A minute later he was holding her in his arms. What a surprise, he whispered. What a wonderful surprise!

She only carried a small backpack. He’d be surprised if she carried more, since she wasn’t that kind of traveler or that kind of woman when it came to that. She believed that too many belongings made life complicated.

Do you want to go straight to my room or into the city? he asked. We can take a cab if you like, he offered. Let’s walk, she said. And they walked, through the cold wind, and the light snowflakes, through the night traffic and the Christmas decorations, all the way to the pedestrian street that traversed the seafront.

There were not many people walking around at that time of night. It was almost midnight and the weather was cruel. But Thessaloniki is one of those places that never sleep, so it was more likely than not, that most of the young people of the city were indoors somewhere, eating or drinking, listening to music or playing one of the ever popular table games.

He asked her if she wanted to go somewhere like that, to sit, to talk and to drink, but she nodded no with a light movement of her head. And then she took his gloved hand into the equally gloved hers and said, let’s go and sit on that bench. Sit? On a bench? In the snow? We’ll freeze to death, he objected. At least we’ll die together, she said, without a smile.

So they went to the bench. It was just partly covered with snow since it was under a tree, so it wasn’t too bad. They sat closely together, giving warmth to each other. He wanted to ask her so many things but he didn’t. She wanted to tell him so many things but she wouldn’t. There’s no need to talk, she thought, our body language speaks volumes; we belong with each other.

The time was passing slowly like a silent drizzle, and fast like a furious hurricane. They were cold but they felt warm inside.

When she set off for this journey she wasn’t sure what to expect. What if he had a girlfriend he deliberately forgot to mention? What if he didn’t feel for her what she felt for him? What if her lust had led her into a trap that would only produce pain and destruction? But all her fears had no foundation whatsoever, as she realized the moment she set eyes on him. He wanted her just as much as she wanted him, no question about it. What she was doing now was delaying the inevitable, savoring every moment until the final act.

She hated Christmas, just as much as he did, but she was certain that she was going to love this one. Let my Christmas miracle happen, she wished upon the hidden stars; let it happen. She squeezed his hand, and he turned his eyes from the dark sea towards her. They were shining and they were wet at the corners but she didn’t think that the cold was to blame for that. Let’s go, she said in a whisper and got up, and he instantly did.

Now she felt like she was in a hurry and if she knew how probably she’d lead the way to his house at the fastest possible pace. But his house was far. Do you want to take a cab? he offered again. No, absolutely not, she answered, I want to walk, and get to know our city better. Our city?

So they walked back for a while before changing direction. They reached Lefkos Pyrgos and they passed it, and then cut across the always busy Niki’s Avenue. Mitropoleos, Tsimiski and Egnatia Odos were to follow as they headed uphill, following Agia Sophia road towards Ano Poli. The city, as predicted was bursting with life. All the cafeterias and the bars were full, the tavernas busy as ever, and the Gyro and Crêpe shops were serving customers food at a furious pace.

Lovely, she said, just lovely. Everything looked beautiful to her that night; the crowds, the Christmas decorations, the sounds, the people, the light. It’s as if I’m in a dream, she thought, and it’s Christmas, she added as an afterthought and smiled to herself. I’m happy, she said, all of a sudden stopping him cold. I’m happy, she repeated the words, as if to make sure that he heard them; this is… I don’t know how to put it Marios, this is… Christmas bliss. She started laughing, right there, in the middle of the street. And so did he. She took him by surprise, and he loved her for it.

When they stopped laughing they went on with their quiet stroll towards his home. He opened the door to an old building and said with a playful smile, after you my lady. She mockingly bowed her head and entered. They climbed the stairs to the second floor.

His apartment was small but cozy. It consisted of a living room, a bedroom, a small kitchen and a tiny bathroom; almost Spartan, just the way she liked it. What more could one ask for? It didn’t take her long to explore it, and then she sat on the small couch. I need something to warm my blood, she declared. How about red wine, love? I’m sure you have a bottle hidden somewhere. More than one, he said and smiled, and hastened to fulfill her wish.

Thus there they sat; drinking wine, talking about the present and the past in small sentences, laughing every now and then, but never getting into details when it came to their everyday lives, since they knew all there was to know about each other already. And they didn’t talk about was the there and then; how come she was there, at that very moment, with him. They both knew the answer, of course they did, but for some reason they were no longer afraid about what tomorrow would bring. This is it, they thought, the moment of truth has arrived.

Their love making was tender at first, more intense later. They hungered for each but at the same time they were trying to savor every moment, to enjoy every kiss, and breath, and touch, as if it was their last. They went to sleep not long before dawn, and their sleep was peaceful, serene, for the first time since that trip to Aegina.

When he woke up a few minutes after noon he found her right where he left her, by his side; this time though she was leaning on an elbow and looking at him straight in the eyes, staring at his bare soul. He wanted to say something, to ask her what? but he didn’t. He was certain she’d soon say whatever she had to say. And she did. I’m moving here, she said, if that’s okay with you that is. I can’t stay away any longer. We’ve wasted too much time already, the fools. I’m willing to risk it if you are. So what do you say? As if his broad smile was not enough of an answer he immediately said, I’ve been waiting for this moment my entire life, or rather since I’ve met you. I always knew that you were the one and… She cut him short. Oh, just shut up and kiss me, you fool; my fool.

And so their love had finally blossomed, a few days before Christmas, in the heart of a fierce winter.

This is the first draft of the story.

The image was taken from here

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

The Second Deadly Sin by Åsa Larsson review

Great crime novels keep coming out of Sweden in particular and Scandinavia in general for the past few years, at a rate that sometimes is hard to follow. What is it that all of sudden made Scandinoir, or Nordic Noir, look so appealing in the eyes of readers all over the world? Is it still because of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo phenomenon or is it something else? Whatever the reason Scandinavian authors now seem to command our full attention and I for one are happy about itThis is the second book I read by this author and I’m sure that more will follow. Mrs. Larsson has a way of gripping the reader’s attention without seemingly trying to do so. Her heroes are everyday people who are trying to live their lives as best they can. They have families and pets, they have a lot of worries and most of them are torturing themselves psychologically, because they can’t really express their feelings, or because they do what they do out of greed or lust for glory instead for the right reasons.

The reader travels back and forth in time in rural Sweden as they embark on the journey of solving the many riddles at the heart of this story. A not so strange incident is what gives spark to flame and ignites the plot. A bear appears out of the snowy nowhere and attacks a farm. A professional bear hunter is called in to find and kill the animal, which under the circumstances is considered extremely dangerous. That happens sooner rather than later but the bear’s death brings to light a sinister discovery: within its body lie parts of the remains of a man. In the meantime, a woman is killed in her house, while a boy of seven, her grandson, hardly escapes with his life. What is it that connects the two cases?

Well, the perfect candidate for heading the investigation would be District Prosecutor Rebecka Martinsson, who knows the people and the place really well, but an ambitious colleague that goes by the name of von Post hijacks her case. She expects that he’ll make a mess of it, and of course he obliges. Rebecka is furious with her boss for allowing him to do that to her and the case, but at the same time she’s determined to find the truth, even though at first she doesn’t even know she’s doing that.

As we follow her around and through the many flashbacks that spread throughout the story we get to learn a lot of things about the history of the region and its people, but most importantly about the stories of the victims. Rebecka is thorough in her research and a great detective of sorts and that’s exactly what leads her to discover the truth; a truth that was there for her to see right from the start.

The Second Deadly Sin is a crime novel, a psychological thriller and a social commentary at the same time, but most of all it’s a great book and as such I’d wholeheartedly recommend it to all.

First published in Crime Factory magazine

Friday, November 8, 2013

Book Review: How to Draw Cartoons by Lou Darvas

This is one of those books that I really wished I had read when I was a youngster, trying to get his hand around painting something, anything that didn’t look like a scratch on the paper.

While reading the words and going through the simple, yet detailed images I felt like, yes, I could try start drawing again, now that I finally got to know how. This book promises to help the rookie navigate the world of cartoon drawing and it does exactly that, in a straightforward and impressive in its simplicity way. I’d recommend it to everyone out there who’d like to discover the hidden artist in them.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Book Review: The Wit and Wisdom of Tyrion Lannister by George R.R. Martin

I have to begin by saying that I’m a huge fan of Mr. Martin and his work and that Tyrion Lannister is one of my all time favorite literary heroes. In fact I’d dare add that I didn’t enjoy A Feast for Crows as much as I should for the simple reason that Tyrion was nowhere to be found.

However, having said that I just have to point out that in my opinion this book came out a few years too early. Since dear Tyrion is still alive and kicking I’m certain that he’d be able to grace us with many more of his witty remarks. Oh well, there’s no use complaining about something that’s already done.

Did this book make me smile? Yes it did, since it reminded me once again what is it that I like about this character. I should also say that the beautiful drawings also capture some of his persona as depicted in the TV series. But, yet again, there’s not enough material in here to keep the fans happy.

Perhaps the next book published in this vein should be The Transformations of Arya Stark, who’s not a lady but a wolf.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Book Review: Chasing the Storm by Martin Molsted

The best thing about the ebook revolution was that it gave us, the readers, the opportunity to discover a lot of new authors, from all over the world. One of the best ones out there, at least when it comes to thrillers, is the Norwegian Martin Molsted.

Chasing the Storm is an action-packed story that follows the exploits of a reluctant at first adventurer, as he struggles to solve a couple of mysteries, with the help of some unlikely allies. Torgrim Rygg, that used to work for the Norwegian Secret Service, but who resigned after a few near-death experiences, is a hero who seems to be at war with himself; a tortured soul that no longer knows where it belongs.

It all begins when Rygg, while in Hamburg for a business trip, saves the life of a Russian journalist, who has a long list of enemies. Marko Marin clashed heads, time and again, with the rich and powerful in Moscow, so he is in constant danger. He knows all too well that he’ll always be one, and as such he believes that he could use Rygg’s services.

Rygg on the other hand isn’t so eager to help, as he’s used to his routine by now. Routine however breeds boredom, and boredom is something that he desperately needs to escape. So when Marin asks for his help he answers that call. What follows is an adventure that will take him to his native Norway just for a while, to Croatia, back to Hamburg, to Russia and to Egypt, and finally to Cyprus. During this long journey he will get to meet some likeable characters and a few vicious villains, and come face to face with death on more than one occasions.

The author created a fast-paced thriller, with a movie like plot, that reminds the reader of the Bourne adventures by Robert Ludlum. All his characters are well-sketched, and he seems to know his geography and the new geopolitical map very well. Torgrim Rygg, his protagonist, as I read, is here to stay, and I must say that his presence is more than welcome. Heroes like him are easy to like, and adventures of this kind have a lot to offer to the modern spy canon. I’d highly recommend this book to all the fans of the genre.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Book Review: Daybreak by Fabio Volo

Fabio Volo came to my attention with One More Day (read my review here), a great novel that I’ve read only recently. What I like most about him is his voice, a voice that can follow many rhythms and talk in an almost lighthearted way about some of the most important things in life.

Daybreak is the story of a marriage that’s going really bad. Both the parties, Elena and Paolo, are unhappy, yet for some reason they stay together. Perhaps that has something to do with their need to have somebody to lean on, perhaps not. Paolo is his mother’s boy, always quiet, always obedient, and unable to cut the cord that ties him to her. Elena is a woman that flirts with depression and who finds it hard to dare exit her dead-end current life and start anew.

We read about their story and her thoughts in her journal, while we also take a look at her present life. As in One More Day, the author gives the reader many beautiful turns of phrase, words that stick to the head and the heart. However, no matter how beautiful words can be, at the same time they can cut like a knife:

“I imitate my idea of an ideal wife; I imitate my friends who are happily married; I imitate who I was at the beginning of my marriage, someone I don’t know how to be anymore.”

How can someone escape their life? And, more importantly, how can they escape the ghosts that haunt their soul? The answer is simple, by seeking a new love. But, even if they find it, will that new love save them? According to Carla, Elena’s best friend, yes, it will. But, how can she be so certain, she who did almost everything wrong in her own life?

Volo does a great job in building the internal worlds of his characters. None of them is innocent, and none of them is guilty. They all have to carry their own burdens, but not all of them can be happy; not really. As we read Elena’s journals we come to know some people who are constantly in conflict, with themselves and the others, without even realizing it; people who are most of the time weak, but every now and then strong; brave and coward; dreamers and conformists.

This is not a perfect world that we live in, but, the author seems to suggest, if we don’t fight to change our circumstances, we’ll never have a chance at finding happiness. His story is a story of ordinary people, beautifully written, that tries to find an audience in one’s soul, and it manages to do just that. This is a sentimental novel that can be read with pleasure by anyone, no matter their gender. And the friends of Italian literature will surely find something to love in its pages.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Book Review: Montalbano’s First Case by Andrea Camilleri

I’ve been reading Andrea Camilleri for more than 15 years now. I think the best thing about his stories is their simplicity. He doesn’t seem to try to impress the reader by creating exploding scenes of chaos and mayhem; he just wants to tell a story.

As the title suggests this book is all about Montalbano’s First Case. The good detective, who was to become a celebrity one day, in this story is young, but not so inexperienced. He lives and works in Mascalippa, but not for long since soon he’s going to be promoted to an Inspector and probably move to another town. The truth is that he doesn’t seem to care so much about the promotion, but he does care about the transfer, as he really wants to go away. Not long before he departs, he takes in the landscape:

“In a matter of seconds he saw the landscape of Mascalippa and its surroundings pass before his eyes. It was certainly splendid, but not his cup of tea. For good measure, he also saw four cows grazing on the withering grass. He felt a cold shiver down his spine, like a bout of malaria.”

His new place of work and residence is Vigata, a town by the sea. He becomes chief of the department there, and soon enough he comes to realize that the whole show is ran by the Mafia; the rich can get away with anything, while the poor have to suffer the consequences. However, not everything is black since there are a couple of people, one of them a cop, that really like to do what’s right.

The new beginning in his career proves somewhat difficult, but Montalbano is not one to run away from trouble. The more some people of power try to push him into the corner, the more he fights back. Corruption is not something he can tolerate, but he knows that if he wants to make a difference he has to balance on a tightrope, made from remnants of the past and the realities of today.

Maintaining the peace however, doesn’t necessarily mean that he’s willing to allow the criminals go unpunished. He’ll do anything to get them, even if that means breaking the law: “Olė! I give you Inspector Salvo Montalbano: otherwise known as the acrobat,” he thinks sarcastically as he enters the house of a suspect through an open window.

This book is a little bit short if compared to the other adventures of the good Inspector but it is a fun read and the characterization is solid. And the mystery and the language, keep the reader’s interest alive until the very last page. If you’re a fan of the author you’ll love it, but you’ll also enjoy it if you’re a lover of Italian literature. It may be short, but it marks the beginning of a literary legend, and as such it deserves all the attention it can get.